“Developing your feeling takes time, especially if it has been systematically discouraged in you. There may be an initial layer of numbness or anger you have to move through and, beyond that, a backlog of grief. But as you make the seemingly bottomless descent, it helps to remember that grief is the downpour your soul has been thirsting for. Like rain, the more excellently and prodigiously you grieve, the more growth and fertility you can expect. There is a future beyond the spiritual aridity and meaninglessness of our time, teeming with life. If each of us has the tenacity to retrieve the elixirs of our discomforts, our combined medicine will heal the collective wound.”
by Dreamwork with Toko-pa | Illustration by Fritz Hegenbarth
The more we deeply Love the self, the less we will feel hurt by the lack of Love from others. Deeply loving the self, is not about love of the Ego, its about allowing the Ego to open the door to the Soul, where we explore our depths, our darkness and our light, our wisdom, our truth and our inner beauty…
When we understand true darkness, there is no fear. It is the fertile soil that receives the light of our higher consciousness, birthing and creating new realities and experiences that are free of intrusion, infiltration and invasion.
It is the deep Mystery that we can embrace with Trust of the power of our Spirit, the 5th element that continually transmutes the assaults from techno controls, toxins and the wounds we carry from being up against the distortions of Consciousness and the M/F, that cause us to measure our worth against things that have no real meaning or value – just a superficial obsession that this World has glorified into something we feel we must live up to, because of the pressure to be accepted or wanted.
We must accept and want ourselves as we truly are. When we focus on this, the outside noise starts to dissolve and the inner God/ess begins to emerge and manifest itself, inspiring those who are lost and engaging others and their deepest soul longing to be Free and seen for who they really are. When we see ourselves, we see the Truth of each other. We have to first take that initiative by stripping away all that is false from our Ego, so the Temple can be unveiled.
The Ego/identity is the outside, the first aspect that is greeted, the part of us that must reflect the beautiful Spirit that dwells within… When we do this there are no false illusions, masks or facades that we wear and we invite in no vandals or destroyers who prey upon our amnesia and programmed disconnect, even if they surround us ~ We are embodied and aware of our Divinity, with no shame and no need to hide…
via Return of the Divine Feminine@
A research group from Johns Hopkins has conducted the longest-running controlled study of the effects of psilocybin, and their findings might be the most promising of all. In 2006, they gave 36 healthy volunteers (who’d never before tried hallucinogens) a dose of the drug, and 60 percent reported having a “full mystical experience.” 14 months later, the majority reported higher levels of overall well-being than before and ranked taking psilocybin as one of the five most personally significant experiences of their lives. In 2011, the team conducted a study with a separate group, and when members of that group were questioned a full year later, the researchers found that according to personality tests, the participants’ openness to new ideas and feelings had increased significantly—a change seldom seen in adults had increased.
Following up on last week’s post:Ganesh Mantra~Our Morning Medicine.
My 2 year old sun Cielo and I have been meeting each morning to sit with this Mantra. It has been a powerful way for us to bond and re-connect with ourselves after sleeptime. (I recently took private quarters in our home, so we are no longer co-sleeping! A huge step in our personal worlds.) I am finding, with deep gratitude, that co-creating ritual is a most stabilizing force with which we can gently guide ourselves through this transition.
I gravitated spontaneously to Ganesha after having many long conversations with Cielo about Elephants: “BIG” “STOMP” “TRUNK” “ELPHAN”… and after a pretty dramatic play session in which we “Elephant Danced” I felt prompted to look up a Mantra we might incorporate into our time together.
So far it has been very powerful… I had no idea that Ganesh is known as the Obstacle Breaker, or that this Diety is associated with the Root Chakra, which related to survival, physicality, and personal identity. I have personally experienced deep moments of release as blockages are spontaneously liberated.
Yesterday morning was the first that we skipped our practice, and I ended up having some MAJOR insecurities/nervous energy/distorted self-talk while I was pushing through the finishing touches on my most recent Costume Commission:
I was creating a very powerful little hell for myself… my vibration was so chaotic that I even created a seemingly “unfixable” glitch in my sewing machine. Suddenly, and with no reason, the tension went bananas and I was forced to completely slow down and finish several details by hand! This was excruciating (I had a deadline to meet) but perfect Medicine as I slowly started to connect with my breath and let go of all the nervous mental chatter.
Today, as we met in practice again, I shared my gratitude with this Great Ally Ganesha… for I was able to transform deep shadow yesterday and re-connect with a more embodied sense of being.
OM GAM GANAPATAYE NAMAHA
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“What is moral, when we do not respect nature? War and nature destruction is normalized, while public lovemaking and nudity is considered offensive and criminalized.“Sexuality and sexual pleasure is one of our greatest gifts and an essential force of nature.”
“Could it be that we reflect our relationship to our inner nature, in how we connect to nature outside us?”
“Maybe we could get over some moral issues about our bodies need to be hidden away or censured, or that sex should be private. We could explore our bodies and sexuality for pleasure, self-development and sexual healing for our planet. Sometimes the people making control, war and nature destruction are the same fuckers suppressing our freedom and sexuality. ”
“Free love, free minds and free bodies are anarchy, and a threat to a society based on power.”
For the last week, my Sun Cielo and I have been sitting with this Mantra before we start our day. Ganesha the Obstacle Breaker, Lord of the Root Chakra, Bringing about Change.
Om Gam Ganapataye Namaha
“This mantra invokes the Lord Ganesha to remove every impediment in your life and in your works. By constant meditation on this mantra, all obstacles and blocked energy in your physical and astral bodies are released.”